::thugged:: / Sunday, December 17, 2006
hii. back again. it's gonna be abstract. maybe, i don't know. some things in life cannot really be explained. like myself.
he hasn't. yet again. i told myself to directly cast him away from my life. at one moment, i thought i did. then there was this longing - again. a longing for that letter, for that familiar thing. it's getting harder and harder. i don't know him anymore, but i can't really bear to leave. it's my fault, my business. i just feel it's destined.
one to long for the other, the other ignorant.
i don't care already. whatever happens to -- will be none of my business. i used to care- jealousy, lush, sin. but now i don't. cos somehow, i didn't cause it to happen, -- suddenly got erased from my life. and i didn't feel a pull, a longing. right now -- is just someone i can see, not feel. not long. just like friends.
only friends.
time seemed to pass so fast yesterday. it was really fast, i thought we only had 2 hours for the whole day. maybe it was because of my late waking. if we only had 2 hours left in our life. 2 hours a day. what would you do? what would you do to make your 2 hours fruitful?
i don't know, myself. what whould
i do? 2 hours a day: i'll wait, wait for the coming. 2 hours left in life: say the last goodbyes to your loved ones, share the company. if only i knew when it would happen. if only
he knew, that there is the other side of the world
time. sometimes i don't want it to fast forward like yesterday. it made it so fast, i didn't know what to do. i want it to rewind. relive the past, the memories. and savour it, treasure it. maybe you have remembered what would happen through you memories, but it doesn't hurt going back again, does it? cos you already know what would happen, brace yourself for it.
and maybe, only maybe, change history.
what i bought in taiwan:- food alot of food. [mua.chee, peanuts, mushroom, chicken terrayaki etc.] ~$60 SGD
- artist's cap. ~$50 SGD
- 1 billabong imitation bag ~$25
- 1 I.AM belgium branded bag ~$113
- 1 book [the shadow of the wind] ~$22
- 1 k-drama [pu2 tao2 yuan2 zhi1 lian4] ~$80
- 1 magic set ~$15
- 1 magic prop ~$10
- 1 leather hand accesory [with name carved] ~$25
- 1 b.u.m long-sleeved t-shirt [chocolate colour] ~$55
- grab-a-toy game [played many times, but did not succeed] ~$10(!)
- "funfair" game [won stuff] ~$5 (compared to 11!)
- i forgot.
- my short-lived happiness ~priceless
/ihopped at
7:11 PM
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